I've been reminded once again lately that learning to be vulnerable is a process.  Once one feels as if they have "mastered" how to be vulnerable in a certain area, there is always another area that needs attention. 

I have a difficult time admitting when things are not going wonderfully.  I have a hard time admitting when I feel hurt or confused.  I'm used to playing the role of the stable friend who is safe to confide in and steady enough to lean on.  I guess I feel that role is compromised when I show that I may be a bit emotionally off kilter. 

I've been in a reflective mood recently.  Many times this has been uncomfortable because I have to then face the challenges that I can usually sweep under the rug of my head and heart.  Life in general has been a bit challenging lately, but I also know that challenges generally promote growth.  I pray my eyes will be open to the lessons God is continuing to patiently teach me.

I've been reading my past blogs and journal entries recently.  I've really enjoyed it.  I've been reminded of past lessons and past challenges that God has guided me through.  I have also been really amazed at how many entries have actually been really helpful for where I am today.  I don't feel like I'm back in the place I was then, but I feel God is using previous hardships to help me through my current situations.

I found the following lyrics by Ginny Owens as I was reading today and they spoke to my heart once again.

Simply Love You

Seems that life's become so complicated
I don't think it was meant to be this way
I find myself so distracted
Caught up in the chaos of each day

When did I stop asking for your wisdom?
As if your words were meant for someone else
Why do I choose to second-guess you?
Oh I only frustrate and confuse myself

I just wanna love you, Simply love you
The way it used to be
When your love was new to me
I just wanna love you, simply love you
To hear what you say and live every day
Like you asked me to
I just wanna simply love you

Many times you spoke of us as children
Childhood seems to me so long ago
You say I can trust you like I did then
If I give you my hand then you'll lead me home

Oh...to fall on my knees
With the fresh disbelief
Stirred once again by the story
of how you loved me